I never know what to say and what not to say on this site, what to leave out or if I’m being too chatty. Sometimes I struggle but hold back on touchy subjects because it’s ‘too personal’ or something people don’t want to hear.

I’m sure when people look at this shot- they look past the bars and see the splendor of Chicago. Typically I would too but tonight I came across this picture, the city I’ve lived and loved in for 8 years and my emotions nearly overcame me. I could hold back like usual but tonight, fuck it. My other half, my brother, my pal, is in jail and it’s terrible. I imagine this is what his view is like, not what we see every night.

I wish I could tell you it was a classic ‘wrong place at the wrong time’ sort of thing, but it wasn’t. The poor guy got mixed up with some shitty rich kids and became addicted into heroine. He nearly killed himself and I’ve never been so thankful that he got arrested 6 months ago and he’s safe tonight.

Whew, that felt good. Hopefully I won’t get ugly e-mails telling me to stop whining. I know it’s difficult to appreciate everything all the time so without sounding too preachy; try to be thankful for what you have and freedoms we take for granted.

Night night, team.